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magical_manda
21 November 2007 @ 10:12 pm
 It's so hard, but I know this is what I need right now. I need to figure out how to be happy for me, with me, without considering him. All this time my happiness has been relying on him, and being with him. And even now I am happiest when we are talking or hanging out. He does make me feel better. When we talk, I want to be his friend. I want us to be okay, even if that means being apart. Why can't I see that when he's not around? Why does it hurt more? I need to not need him to make me feel like this is okay. I need to be okay with this on my own terms. I need to.
 
 
magical_manda
08 November 2007 @ 11:21 pm

 I have faith that...

My real friends will always be here for me (and I only hope I can be there for them too)

Somewhere out there there is a boy for me (he will want to hold my hand, hug me without asking, tell me I'm pretty and love me for everything I am and everything I could be)

I will figure out what I want to do with my life, and I will love doing it (even if it takes me twenty more years)

I will wake up one day and be able to breathe, even knowing you aren't mine anymore

No matter what happens, we will be okay. We can make it work. (I want you to need me in your life, somehow..)

I will always have a reason to cry happy tears, but when I do cry tears of sadness I will know it is going to get better

I will always know the right thing to do, even if I don't always do it

Mistakes will be made, but there's always second chances, if you want it bad enough

I have faith that I will always find something to smile about and cry about. I have faith that I will be wanted, someday. I have faith that I am a good person, even though I don't always show it.

I have faith.




 
 
Current Mood: crushed
 
 
magical_manda
07 November 2007 @ 11:32 am

 

 

 

 We knew it all from a little thing
It was everything in our first minute
And it took us to another place
Yeah another place and we fell in it
How dare you not remember
How dare you walk away

We adored every little thing
Every little thing would leave us breathless
Every dawn spelled another day
And in another day we weren't so restless
How dare you not remember
How dare you walk away


And I wanted you so much
Just like I do right now

I wanted us to be the one the poets write their books about
I wanted it to last
I wanted to grow old
But life got in the way

We walked around in a heavy haze
We were stuck in days of so much warring
We got lost in a tricky maze
Yeah a tricky maze that was so scarring
How come you can't remember
How dare you walk away
Then you start to add the little things
Add the little things and trip the mighty
Now we got a little bitter thing
A little bitter thing that grew like ivy
And how dare you not remember
How dare you walk away


And apathy grows quietly where rapture used to fly
And promises and certainty have left love here to die
Won't you stay and don't let this one fall away


Yeah well life got in the way

 
 
 
 

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